I love being a mom. It can be very rewarding. I watched my daughter take her first steps last week and squealed with joy. No kidding. I cried & squealed at the same time. Each day she gets a little better on those two cute feet. I love holding my son in my arms and seeing him focus his eyes on me. I also love crawling on the floor trying to catch Ella and scooping her up in my arms when I do. It's fun dancing to the music & pretending to cook in her kitchen. It's awesome to see Ella kiss Vance or become concerned when he is crying. Watching them sleep is just precious. They are so sweet and it also means I can sleep or get something done for a little while.
But being a mom of two very young kids can also have its challenges. The number one struggle is lack of sleep and how that can lead to impatience on my part. It never fails they both need to eat at the same time too. I will like this when they eat the same thing but try feeding a baby a bottle while feeding carrots or yogurt to a 1 year old. It can get a little tricky. Trying to get both kids out the door and get somewhere on time seems impossible. I have been successful a few times but that is usually when where we are going doesn't require me looking presentable. The biggest challenge for me though, is feeling like Vance isn't getting all that Ella got. When Ella was a baby I sat and talked to her & showed her things for hours. Poor Vance is often left to rest on the activity mat, in the crib or bouncy seat while I tend to Ella. He is always with me in the same room but I feel he doesn't get all of me. I also hate that I have not found the time in my schedule/routine to read the Bible to him. That was always my routine with Ella during the first bottle of the day. Actually I haven't read it to Ella lately either. That is what I miss for them & me. I like reading the Bible and talking about it to them. The problem is I am just so exhausted that I haven't made the effort to figure out how.
I knew that having two kids so close together would have some challenging moments. I just think in the back of my mind I thought I was Wonder Woman & it wouldn't be an issue for me. Now that I have had a taste of reality (the good & the bad) I can move forward with making the most out of every day with my two beautiful children.
Before very long, God and you are going to work out a schedule so that you will have time, during the day, to read the Bible to your children. Until then, your children will not be lacking for the Word of God. For they hear it and see it in their parents' lives, daily. Remember, it wasn't your idea to have children so close together in age, it was Gods. Therefore, as you already know, He will provide everything you need to raise His children in His likeness including time to read His word and strength to endure each day.
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